the big hole in my chest

i lost my"R" for twice. big hole in my chest. bigger than before. when i heard that him have a new girlfriend. i feel like the world isn't spin anymore. one month i'm in a mess, and then, i meet the good boy. just call him "jake". he makes the big hole in my chest become narrow. thanks for him can make me laugh. so far so good. but jake is suddenly gone. and the big hole in my chest becomes larger. i lost 2 boys this time. i cry! i can't be strong girl. whenever i'm alone, i just imagine about you. how you cut your hair, how you speak, how you smile, how you act. i just can't forget about you. my "R" dear my reader, don't you ever waste your lovely. bacause hard to find your soulmate. thanks